social anxiety goth
This has been one of my biggest dilemmas in going out in “full gear” for years. On the one hand, I find people staring and leering quite uncomfortable even when they are just intrigued and not giving dirty looks. I try to smile and be nice but being the center of attention is something I don’t really enjoy. But on the other hand, if I don’t dress the way I want, I don’t feel comfortable and get insecure anyway.
Luckily I’ve gained a lot of confidence over the years and can handle the reactions (both positive and negative) much better than before, so going out all dressed up has become more frequent now.
My dad always says he wants to attach a hidden camera to my clothes so we can watch people’s reactions later. That would be really interesting but I don’t know if I could handle it; So many looks are given when they have already passed you…